Insane In the Membrane

My friend Becky of Flawed Perfectly posted this picture on her instagram and I saw it and suddenly remembered how INSANE I used to be and how insane I still am. I know I have posted before about how last year 2014 I got on this insane get healthy and do Zumba everyday kick, which don't get me wrong Zumba is still a great fun activity. However, the downfall is.. I didn't get healthy one bit.  

I was insane. I did Zumba faithfully from January to about September of 2014. It was fun and I lost a few inches maybe, but I am pretty convinced that instead of losing weight I gained it. How sad is that? However, I came to terms that I was fat and that I will always be fat forever and that was okay because I have family and friends that love me no matter how much I weigh. I took huge pride in being a "Big Beautiful Girl". Well this big beautiful girl under the surface came to terms with the fact that being big and beautiful was not okay healthwise. When my dear Papa lost his foot to diabetes last September, I knew for a fact that in a few years I could be a "Big Beautiful DIABETES Girl". I had been told my whole life "Amber, if you eat like that you are going to get diabetes." "Amber, watch what you eat." "Amber, that is more than one serving." "Amber, that is not something you eat for a snack. Next time get an apple." on and on with the watch your food sayings. You think I would have listened,but eventually I did. After seeing my dad like that I knew I needed a change I just didn't know what just yet. I didn't have time for exercise at all with starting a new school and just being a busy adult. I had lost hope and thought well, I am fat and severely unhealthy and there is nothing that I could do about it because I just did not have the time for that 30 minute Zumba DVD. 

Fast forward two months of thinking and praying for something to come into my life and help me. In November 2014 I found hope in a family member who had gone 7 months without flour and sugar and lost 70 pounds or so. Who would have thought that by not eating flour and sugar something that incredible could happen. I wanted that, and I wanted it bad. So on November 4, 2014 (about 9 months ago) I jumped on the bandwagon and never looked back. 

November 23,2014 at 378 Pounds 

July 23,2015 at 285 Pounds 

Though I have already seen such a huge difference in my body size and my health I still have a long way to go and a lot of hope that I can get there. And I have a lot of gratitude for the strength that God has given me to change my life one day at a time. 

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~Amber